Damn

so hurt and so damn. close the memories! fighting 'o'~

although the eyes never lies, keep try to smile!

Lara hati

Penat

why its so hard? when you flying up and then you fall so down. damn it! when you need someone to bring you to happiness world but he gave you some judge. abis bercandaan tiba-tiba berantem, its so funny i think ::)

gue ngetik ini sambil dengerin lagunya Laluna - Lara Hati. Udah lebih dari 10x lagu ini di play. ketika lo dimaki-maki, ketika lo dibentak-bentak, dan ketika itu juga gue yakin gada orang yang spontan teriak bahagia, yang ada paling spontan ngeluarin berlian dari matanya. fine, its so fine guys! karna dengan menangis berarti lo masih punya hati dan perasaan. ketika lo di judge macem-macem? yaps seperti biasa, cewe dikenal sebagai makhluk lemah dan makhluk yang salah buat para cowo. cuma bisa diem, marah, nangis. cowo mungkin gamau tau gimana sebenernya yang dirasain para cewe, mereka gatau kalo mungkin hati cewe itu patah, hancur, remuk, berantakan, sampe bentuknya abstrak. yang mereka tau, cewe cuma niat buat nyakitin mereka. munafik, itu kata para cowo buat cewe. i think 'munafik' is so bad word, but why so many people can speak that word so easy? hahaha hidup emang ekstrim. kalo aja ada les atau khursus buat ngelatih hati, gue yakin banyak orang semacam gue yang ikut. lemah, bodoh, itu kata mereka.layaknya sampah yang bisa diperlakukan sembarangan.

random

Hello guys, hasn't write some post in my page, and now i'll try to write something about my randomly life with my randomly words ^o^
I'd something wrong about my self especially "heart". oh so sensitive to talk about that but i can't hold this for my self. its about someone who made my life better than before.
Kenalnya udah bertaun-taun, setaunan udah dijalanin bareng. Entah kenapa rasanya sreg banget, ngena deh sampe ke lubuk hati. And finally, we've miscommunication. initially, someone came in our relationship, sebenernya itu permainan orang itu, ya tapi karna saat itu lagi bad situation in our relationship dan orang ini terlalu mengumbar kata-kata manis jadi ya terjadilah ke-khilaf-an. Imagine!!! when you need your 'someone special' to entertain you but he so busy with his world? how??? how you feel?! oh so bad, don't imagine this because just can make you so hurt and cried all the day. Harapan yg penuh ke-khilaf-an juga can't be avoided deh. Anggep aja masalah satu itu selesai, karna emang diselesain beberapa hari. And someday, the beautiful girl came and told about my past. Oh itu sungguh gapenting sepertinya. Sampe akhirnya orang yg paling lo sayang  bisa bicara seperti orang yg paling lo benci, 180degrees different. Shock shock shock! It so damaged the lovely heart. Untuk hal ini gamungkin gue ceritain lengkap dan detail karna akan menyinggung orang yg terlibat. And for another problem, only enough we knew.
Belakangan ini gue nemuin orang-orang yang bergaya seperti "orang yg tau segalanya". About feelings? About heart? Who knows?! Only your self and God that knows. Sempet ga habis pikir kenapa bisa orang yg sekiranya sudah cukup mengenal gue itu bisa berpikir negatif tentang gue, emang sih pikiran manusia kalo ngga positif ya negatif. Tapi apa mesti jadi lost trust? so far we've relationship, you think if I am just someone who makes you as the rebound. you know about my heart? you underestimated my self. There was never have thought for making people who already really love me as the rebound. BIG WRONG! wrong opinion! wrong thought! and you didn't believe me and you doubt of me. I'm including people who hate "the doubt" about problem like this. ya sudahlah, its so complicated and I wanted to repair my heart slowly until my heart can falling in love again. Welcome new life, focus on UN and SNMPTN. hope i'll become the yellow jacket's student in  2012, Amin :)

Creation

So sad

annoyed

complicated

depressed

Depressed

when all is going as usual

we know the daily happened

and when a difference happen, we can feel it

so hurt. when someone we love has change to be someone other but it all begins because ourselves

when someone was very easy to say 'I miss you' but without the attitude that supports the words, what do you feel? very painful but maybe it should be understood

we not only need the word 'love', but attention and care that make us feel 'you need me'

maybe there's something wrong with my attitude and my feelings, too sensitive! too sensitive with the changes that happen! thinking too much about what shouldn't think!

someday, time will answer all. the lie will look when it happened. the happiness will shine if there is with us

Pensi

Second grade of Senior High School

*Pentas Seni Terpadu*

There's the process

 

laugh.. jokes.. happy.. sad..

grow to be one happy family

named TESSERIS

and here we are

* there is love to bring us to success *

:)

Dear...

Dear.. My heart

BE NICE PLEASE!

THIS IS A REAL LIFE!

YOU MUST KEEP FIGHTING!

YOU MUST KEEP SMILING!

NO MORE SAD AND TEARS!

^o^

Judgment

I think it would be more painful later

confused with everything I'm thinking

right? wrong? no one knows for sure

sad. not known how my heart now

want to be angry? for whom?

want to cry? for what?

hopefully all things were not like now

only God who could change it now

too much pressure. tired of everything

want to go. go away so far away. not habited place

no one understands my feelings, even the closest people do not understand what I mean

want to scream. removing all the burden of thinking

too sick to hurt people who I love

needs many time to heal the wounds of my heart

God.. please take me, if indeed it would be more painful

............

Hurt, it's so hurt

I think, keep quiet is the best choice

No problem, yeah never mind

Yes i'm fine and very very very fine

:)

Fad

This is me

don't know how I feel right now

angry? upset? cry? for what?

won't change the situation like now

I had no right to be angry

I had no right to prohibit

that is your life, you know what is right or wrong

If it is love, yes I love

If it is angry, yes I am angry

If it is annoyed, yes I am annoyed

If it is disappointed, yes definitely I am also disappointed

Pent

1 week ago .....

when the day was 29th

when teardrops changing my big smile

when I must let him go with all my happiness

when I felt so destroy his life

when I couldn't make him happy

when I gave him some pain and sorrow

when I wanna life alone without people who I love

and when I must let him go

ANGRY. SAD. ANNOYED. DISSAPOINTED. DEPRESSED. CONFUSED. HATE

that's what I feel until now 


I believe you can get the best one for be yours
this not the end for me, for you, and for our
we can be the best friend
we can keep our friendship forever
you're my best ever had be mine
I wouldn't forget our togetherness
thanks for your times that you gave to me
that's time was so beautiful and so meaning for me
thanks for your love and your attention
29 Agustus 2010, I love you CR

Light love

Thanks already light up my night, I promise I'll keep this :)

Endless love

you. yes its you, Christian Richard

I love you, I love you, I love you

you couldn't changed from my heart

although we are not together, believe my heart to you
do not be sad, do not get mad, do not hate me
I still love you until my time's up
I love you

Ndew's and Aisy's Day

happy birthday

SHINTA DEWI LARASATI

AISY NURMANISA

this surprise was very late but remember that 'better late than never'

Happy 16th at 20 Desember 2010 

shinta dewi larasati as Ndew

Happy 17th at 26 Desember 2010

 aisy nurmanisa as Aisy

LET'S GOT THE PARTY!!

Heart

"I truly love you endlessly. Everyday without you is like a book without pages. I love you, I will always do for the rest of our earthly and heavenly life"

Weak

what's wrong with me?

i also do not know what happened to me

sometimes feels so lonely

sometimes feels so sad

sometimes feels so annoyed

sometimes feels so confused

many problem that haunted me

but i don't know what will i do

thingking? it's always be my habit

doing something? what can i do now? 

don't know and so don't know!!

let it flow? it's just a joke for me

bullshit, that's bullshit!!