random

Hello guys, hasn't write some post in my page, and now i'll try to write something about my randomly life with my randomly words ^o^
I'd something wrong about my self especially "heart". oh so sensitive to talk about that but i can't hold this for my self. its about someone who made my life better than before.
Kenalnya udah bertaun-taun, setaunan udah dijalanin bareng. Entah kenapa rasanya sreg banget, ngena deh sampe ke lubuk hati. And finally, we've miscommunication. initially, someone came in our relationship, sebenernya itu permainan orang itu, ya tapi karna saat itu lagi bad situation in our relationship dan orang ini terlalu mengumbar kata-kata manis jadi ya terjadilah ke-khilaf-an. Imagine!!! when you need your 'someone special' to entertain you but he so busy with his world? how??? how you feel?! oh so bad, don't imagine this because just can make you so hurt and cried all the day. Harapan yg penuh ke-khilaf-an juga can't be avoided deh. Anggep aja masalah satu itu selesai, karna emang diselesain beberapa hari. And someday, the beautiful girl came and told about my past. Oh itu sungguh gapenting sepertinya. Sampe akhirnya orang yg paling lo sayang  bisa bicara seperti orang yg paling lo benci, 180degrees different. Shock shock shock! It so damaged the lovely heart. Untuk hal ini gamungkin gue ceritain lengkap dan detail karna akan menyinggung orang yg terlibat. And for another problem, only enough we knew.
Belakangan ini gue nemuin orang-orang yang bergaya seperti "orang yg tau segalanya". About feelings? About heart? Who knows?! Only your self and God that knows. Sempet ga habis pikir kenapa bisa orang yg sekiranya sudah cukup mengenal gue itu bisa berpikir negatif tentang gue, emang sih pikiran manusia kalo ngga positif ya negatif. Tapi apa mesti jadi lost trust? so far we've relationship, you think if I am just someone who makes you as the rebound. you know about my heart? you underestimated my self. There was never have thought for making people who already really love me as the rebound. BIG WRONG! wrong opinion! wrong thought! and you didn't believe me and you doubt of me. I'm including people who hate "the doubt" about problem like this. ya sudahlah, its so complicated and I wanted to repair my heart slowly until my heart can falling in love again. Welcome new life, focus on UN and SNMPTN. hope i'll become the yellow jacket's student in  2012, Amin :)